How’d you sleep last night? •I didn’t.
Are you having any thoughts of harming yourself? •Do I strike you as an individual who would harm herself?
Do I look like I need help?
Tell me how should I dress my anxiety.
And does PTSD come in plus sizes?
Do I look like I’ve been up all night fighting a war that I never signed up to fight in?
Is my depression showing again?
It likes to hog the spotlight.
Every corner I bury myself in, no matter how deep, my depression digs it’s way out.
My best friends are the worst, though it is them who I turn to, to ensure I am alone.
My anxiety knows no one will ever love me like she does, therefore she tightens her grip when I try to speak.
There is no place that I can hide where they can not find me
And how do I fix my lips to tell them to leave me alone
How do i abandon the only two friends who have stuck by me no matter how hard I’ve tried to push them away
My depression is the sentence that I was born to serve and every time I think about trying to break free, my anxiety reminds me that no one will love me like she does
Where else will I find love that unbinds me in ways I could never explain
She keeps her hand near my mouth, in hopes I don’t say the wrong thing and when she screws up
My depression is there for damage control making sure I am hidden while I can swim in my own defeat, leaving me to drown in my own puddle of mistakes
Pardon my symptoms, they tend to speak out of turn but to answer your question…
No I don’t feel like killing myself today.