and on that particular day
i woke up and realized that my dreams
matched the font of my last journal entry
i knew instantly that i had fallen asleep with
the only pen that’s ever been brave enough
to whisper your name
and on that particular day
i woke up and realized that my dreams
matched the font of my last journal entry
i knew instantly that i had fallen asleep with
the only pen that’s ever been brave enough
to whisper your name
i tend to avoid eye contact because of the extra hours my eyes put in
as if employee of the month was its birthright
there is no simplicity in having different views
the stars have never easily aligned
two days ago we passed a street and you noticed an empty field
well not that empty--it had become home for the remnants of what used to be
and then you said to me that it was horrible to leave such a sight on display
and then you questioned my face and why it appeared as if i disagreed
well o yes, indeed. you do know me so well
that very same spot is where a home stood right before it fell
if you silence your disgust you'd hear the memories calling out to you
listen to the floorboards squeak as it hid footsteps walking in past curfew
the arguments that kept us up
and the apologies we all slept through
that bag of bones once had love coursing through its veins
one mans trash poetically viewed will always be another mans treasure
How far must I walk before I am no longer seen
Do I walk backwards if being seen is what I want
I have traveled this lonely road so many times
My footprints have imprinted upon the concrete
Telling the trees stories I am too afraid to write down
With each step I take in the opposite direction
A leaf dances as it leaps from its resting place, applauding my bravery
Today I stopped to sit and count the times I gave myself a second chance
As the leaves that haven’t fallen yet watch and wonder if they’ll ever get their time to shine
Without my baggage
Tell me how would I travel
My past is still me
I had hoped you’d say you remembered
It was the last needle I compromised myself to thread
It was at that moment I let go of the metaphorical cliff that
happened to look just like your promises
Or maybe the cliff got tired of me holding on
Maybe you broke them on purpose
The uncertainty of who let go first
did nothing to the speed at which I was falling
Free falling through the song that played in the background
The soundtrack to our demise
The more you talk about how it isn’t me but you
The more the music grows louder and my hearing improves
There are parts of this song I’ve never heard before
Moments I’ve never touched
Verses that were once foreign now speaking my language
Harps that harped on and on about the beauty that’s in the beholder
Then came the bridge
A bridge I had never crossed before
The trumpets carried me over and then the piano started to play
And once it hit the key that opened up my locked heart
Everything made sense
The sound of me breaking brought me through a lyrical journey
included with instructions on how to put me back together
Make no mistake I am sobbing–but not because I lost you
But because the epiphany that sat waiting in the pit of me
Finally woke up and showed me where I’m meant to be
And it’s definitely not here with you….