For as long as I can remember walking from my front door to yours only took ten minutes
Not a minute more-not a minute less
And I’m not sure if it was stress that made my footsteps heavier
But tonight it felt like lifetimes had passed by before I even put down my phone
At 11:00 you text me and you told me you were home alone
Followed by “You’ll never see me again because I’ve been sad for far too long”
At 11:01 I called you and then I panicked because you didn’t pick up
I left behind my shoes, keys, and jacket because when it came to time – I didn’t have enough
At 11:02 my neighbor shouted and asked “Is everything okay”
Thirty seconds passed as I thought out loud, “No it’s not so please get out of my way”
My feet dug into the pavement as I had to make up for lost time
At 11:03 I thought about life without you and I damn near lost my mind
I absolutely lost my breath but I knew I couldn’t stop
At 11:04 I questioned if I’d ever make it to your house
Thank the universe my neighbor is nosy and thank God she called the cops
At 11:05 I jumped in and screamed your name and directed him to go around the block
My friend needs our help and that’s really all I can say
But that’s mostly because I’m out of breath from running all this way
At 11:06 he called for an ambulance still unsure of what’s going on
Can this car go any faster, we’ll be too late, and she’ll be gone
I felt my heart sink into my stomach-sounds around me got quite blurry
At 11:07 I could see your doorstep and my screams whispered “hurry”
Please break down the door! I need to get in and save her life
At 11:08 there you sat while in your hand you held a knife
Your eyes were still open but you were barely hanging on
Time waits for no one and I knew that we did not have long
At 11:09 I grabbed your wrists and continued to hold them tight
I looked at you and smiled then promised that I wouldn’t lose you tonight
At 11:10 I woke up screaming because I can never dream past that part
Remembering the night I broke my promise absolutely breaks my heart
Thinking of what I could have done differently
From beginning to the very end
At 11:11 I wished once more, that I’d never have this nightmare again